Excruciating Agony: My Fight With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with severe pain around one eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks usually start with abrupt, excruciating pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

National guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Sherry Long
Sherry Long

Urban planner and sustainability advocate with over 15 years of experience in global city development projects.